Former Home & Away Star Wanted To Die During Cancer Battle
Former Home and Away star, Tessa James, has revealed the moment it all became too much while undergoing chemotherapy for Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.
In an interview with Sunday Night, the 24-year-old, told how she hit rock bottom.
“I had a panic attack and I remember calling my dad and just saying ‘I want to die, I don’t want to do this, I can’t do it’,” she said.
James’ father, Stephen, had also been fighting his own battle after being diagnosed with Non Hodgkins Lymphoma in 2012.
Best known for her role as Nicole Franklin on the Aussie soap, James blamed the reaction on the numerous drugs she was forced to take.
“I was a clean eating, healthy person, I’d never experienced that amount of drugs in my body,” she said.
“The drugs were making me depressed and anxious.”
Tessa James hit rock bottom during cancer treatment
Tessa James hit rock bottom during cancer treatment - "I remember calling dad and saying I just want to die"Posted by Sunday Night on Sunday, August 2, 2015
In February James underwent her last round of chemo.
Taking to Instagram to share the moment, the star wrote: "often fear is the same emotion as excitement, it means you are breaking new ground" #newbeginnings. #2015.”
Surrounded by her family and footballer husband, Nate Myles, a beaming James was dressed up as Wonder Woman at the time.
Talking to Sunday Night, she revealed that while it wasn’t her idea, it seemed fitting after such a “traumatic” experience.
“I felt like Wonder Woman at the end of it,” she said.
Now in remission, James says she and Myles hope they will one day be parents.
However, the star has revealed she decided against freezing her eggs before undergoing treatment after deciding to start six months of chemotherapy straight away.
“There are high stats of people my age having had treatment who have children, so I hope that is in the future for us,” she said.
According to the Leukaemia Foundation around 550 people are diagnosed with Hodgkin Lymphoma in Australia each year.
While it can occur at any age, it is most common in adolescents and young adults.
Delta Goodrem was also diagnosed with Hodgkin's at the age of 18.